I am probably the most inconsistent person that I know, and no I am not proud of it. Health and wellness is definitely a big part of my life. It keeps me sane on days when I feel like a complete mess of a human being. If you have been with me since I started this blog, you already know that I have been through some big changes in my life.
I obviously wasn’t coping very well during this past month or so. As much as I want to say that I was taking care of myself, I really wasn’t. I stopped going to yoga, I started eating meat again, and I drank every weekend (both Fridays and Saturdays). I’m glad to say that I’ve definitely regained some of my normal routine back. Two weeks ago, I signed up for some hip hop classes downtown. I’ve started going to the gym, attending my yoga classes, and consuming as little animal products as possible. It feels good to be back on the grind and finally feel like myself again.
Today I worked out on an empty studio and at first I didn’t know what to do with myself with all of the freedom I had. It was nice having the space all to myself, but it was even nicer when another girl joined me and we bonded over Kayla Itsines’ BBG workout guide. As much as it was nice to be secluded from everyone at the gym, making a new friend or just having a nice conversation with a stranger really did brighten my day. It just reminds me that with life sometimes we are so focus on ourselves and completing the task at hand that we forget to look around and noticed that we are all on this beautiful journey together.
Life’s a grind, but it doesn’t mean you have to do it all alone.
These past couple of days has been really great. I’ve woken up to the sun shining through my window and I have really enjoyed having that to be the first thing I experience when I wake up. Last week, I dreaded waking up in fear of finding myself broken again. However, that hasn’t been the case as of late and I am so very glad.
This might be weird to say but I honestly believe that being broken is the biggest positive experience I have had in my life.
I’ve learned so much about my body, the people around me, I got put into a position where I could rebuild and repair relationships that has wavered for so long. There is no need for me to hold onto something that serves me nothing but pain. Sometimes it’s hard for us to see when we should walk away from something that once made us very happy. However, when we notice that it is changing us to something we are not and don’t want to be, that is when we need to step back and just let go. At first I was lost when it came to myself but now I can finally say that I’m okay. I find myself smiling more and other people in my life notices it too.
It also helps that one of my best friend has stayed with me through this hard time. She has honestly been by my side this entire time and I am forever thankful. It’s nice to have someone who will sit next to you and not say something when you’re at the weakest point of your life. Everyone needs a person who will be sit by their side and help them get back up again.
the lesson I learned at the nudist beach
What’s more freeing than being naked? Absolutely nothing.
I have always wanted to go to Wreck Beach, a clothing-optional beach which stretches approximately 6 kilometers just west of Vancouver.
Since the weather these past couple of days has been really nice, my friend and I decided to commute the hour and a half to UBC and flaunt what we have while we still got it.
I have to say that at first I was skeptical to take my clothes off. However, after multiple anxiety attacks, I realized that it really wasn’t that big of a deal. Sure there were tons of people around, but they also had their own business to mind. The fact of the matter is that other people really don’t care what you do, and if they did it really didn’t matter as well.
What I’ve learned in taking my clothes off in public is that most of the times I am so worried about how others may perceived myself that I forget to live in the moment. I learned to finally be free and not care what other people thought of me.
My advice to you: be free and get naked, whether it is physically or mentally. If you don’t allow yourself to be vulnerable, you may miss out on life’s greatest moments.